Frustration

Sometimes I want to scream, to shout my furies to the world.  Oh why must life be such a stage, a dance, with a mask to wear and too many opportunities to make a wrong step?  For once, could there be no consequences for sharing completely who we are and what we feel?  Life is too short to tiptoe around subjects, but that's exactly what we do.  We are taught to live a certain way, and when we go against that grain, it is we who bear the brunt of if.
Not surprisingly, the source of my frustration is relationships.  This time, I'm having to deal with a friend of mine trying to set me up with a friend of hers. My tastes are completely different from this friend, yet she decided to try to hook me up anyway with a guy I don't know, have heard nothing about, and who now knows things about me.  What irks me the most, however, is that she didn't even ask me before thrusting this on me.  I feel like my personal life has been invaded somewhat, and it is something that I would never do to her.  Not without permission first.  There's also an eerie coincidence in it though.  All the guys whom I've had awkward relationship frustrations with have all had names starting with the same letter.  After this amount of time, I'm kind of wondering if it's a sign of some sort.
Now maybe I wouldn't mind as much if I felt I didn't have a chance with a certain someone else.  But the truth is, I may be starting to feel something for this guy, and I don't really know how to read him yet.  Maybe there's a chance, and I'm hoping there might be, but even if there doesn't come anything from it, right now I'd be okay too.  I just have to guard my heart, and hope I don't end up lying to myself.  I also wish I could go with the whole "no consequences" bit and just make my feelings known.  But again, there's a proper way to do things, and it could backfire otherwise.
I wonder though if I set my standards too high though sometimes.  The question is about where to draw the line, what to give or take.  I simply don't know.  And the not knowing is part of what frustrates me the most.  So here's basically my rant, and my scream, albeit one that does nothing to help situations.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!